I was watching the television show
The '90s: The Decade That Connected Us on National Geographic Channel the other day, and there was a segment about raves and electronic music. Then, when raves had first begun, in the UK and in Europe, they were banned by the government. Music that had repetitive beats that went on and on was banned.
I'm listening to music that has repetitive beats now. I'm glad that they're not banned now.
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This week has been an absolute terror. I genuinely feel like this week has been a fucking shitty week.
This happened about 2 weeks ago, though:
Went out with Melcher and Bert, and on account of my still having stitches in my mouth, they generously agreed to dine at Soup Spoon! It was nice catching up with them, and I'm really happy that both of them are doing awesome now!
They both gave me encouragement and support for my then impending interview, which I was really glad for. Considering I've worked with them for at least 2 years, they know how I am when I need to do work, so it was a relief when they said I'd be fine!
Meet my souvenir from Amsterdam
I went for my first interview, after ample preparation. It turned out that I had a second interview to do, during which I had to present a pitch for a mock event.
I was initially terrified and overwhelmed. But I thought about one of my favourite quotes said by one of my favourite characters in one of my favourite films and got past my fear. In the
Divine Secrets of the Ya-ya Sisterhood, Viviane Joan Abbott Walker says "
But nobody ever got anywhere by being frightened all the time!" to her daughter, Siddalee Walker.
It's one of my favourite scenes, because it really resonates with me. On an outing to the fields with the rest of the women and children, Sidda initially rejects her mom's offer to go on a plane ride, because she is scared of heights. However, because of her choice, she was unhappy and sulky for the rest of the afternoon. Upon reaching home, Vivi demands an explanation for Sidda's behaviour, and when Sidda tells her about wanting to go on a plane, Vivi asks her why she did not go up when she had her turn just now - to which Sidda replies "I was scared." And then Vivi says that, my favourite line, "But nobody ever got anywhere by being frightened all the time!" It really resonates with me because... I was - and sometimes still am - a lot like young Siddalee. I'm indecisive about what I want, so when I make a choice, I can get really unhappy and frustrated about that choice, and then blame myself, and blame others for it. I know it's stupid to behave like that, and things can be so much better if I don't behave like that. So ever since watching that film, I've tried my hardest to live by that line, because I don't want to be like Siddalee and miss my plane ride. Well she didn't anyway, because Vivi worked her magic and got the pilot to bring them up to the sky on the plane again.
That night, went out for awesome 4fingers chicken with Flea and visited Balaclava!
MISSED MY GIRL SO MUCH!!! So proud of her for attaining all that she's achieved so far. (:
sidenote: I finally opened my MAC Rebel lipstick (I have many unopened lipsticks)!! Strangely it doesn't look that dark or purple on my lips! Also, tried to do a cut-crease eyeshadow but DANG IT I just can't stop myself from blending out that line!!!!
Genuinely, I feel my spirits lift a little blogging now. It's a horribly disjointed entry; I apologise for that! But it's really been an awful last week. The only good thing that happened was that my parents and I saved a little doggie!
Here she is!
So the story goes, it was Sunday morning. Usually I go out for a jog with my parents, but that morning I simply couldn't bring myself to wake up because I was exhausted from having worked hard on my presentation slides for the past few days. They bought breakfast home for me, and left house immediately again to burn incense as it was the last day of the Hungry Ghost Festival. So I sat there eating my breakfast, and as I was finishing it, it suddenly started to pour! I raced to close the bedroom windows and pushed in the clothes on the poles, then grabbed two huge umbrellas and rushed out of the house. In case my parents got caught in the rain.
While I was rushing out, I came across this little dog tottering down the staircase, and thought nothing of it. I assumed she was just unleashed and walking behind her owner! Walked around the blocks and couldn't find my parents (wasn't too sure where the incense burner was) so I finally circled back to my block, and saw both my mom and dad peering at the little dog, who was still at the void deck of my block! Apparently she had already been there when my parents left to burn incense and when they returned, she was still there, wandering about, so they were trying to decide what to do with her.
Poor thing, she looked so terrified! She was cowering and shivering, and even pooped on the floor when my mom and I tried to approach her. After awhile I managed to coax her toward me and carried her up. Went to the different floors and knocked on doors with my parents, but none of our neighbours seemed to recognise her! We weren't keen on leaving her at the void deck alone because... it just seemed so heartless! Brought her back with us to the balcony.
Tried to snap some photos of her looking at the camera and I went and made this poster!
Printed a few of them and my mom went to paste them around the blocks, while I washed the doggie's feet and wiped her butt. Then sat down with her in the balcony and gave her some water to drink.
She was initially quite scared but after a while she started behaving like a dog again!!! Walking around and sniffing stuff. I was really relieved. Sat with her and she had to have body contact with me all the time, poor thing. Meep. My younger brother and I were playing with her when my mom received a call on her cell! IT WAS HER OWNER CALLING US!!!
I actually shared the notice on FB and some of my friends helped to share the photo around (there're groups on FB which share such information to assist owners get their lost dogs back quickly, I never knew that!! So cool, right?), so I wrote a little update:
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The owners have contacted us and we have returned little Banjeegal (I think that's how her name is spelt) to them! The owners are neighbours of ours (on a different floor) whom have just moved to our block 2 months ago; Banjeegal managed to squeeze out from their gate's gap and was unfamiliar with the surroundings so she was scared. Thankfully my family members and I worked as a team quickly; I made and printed the posters, my mom went to paste them around in surrounding blocks, my brothers and I accompanied the doggy and made her calm, and well, my dad - knowing how little he cares for pets - it's really generous for him to even let us bring Banjeegal into our apartment. Extremely proud of the Ng family today and really happy to have returned Banjeegal to her owners! The granny was crying when she carried Banjeegal back. :D Never expected my Sunday morning to turn out like this, but yay! All's well that ends well."
I'm genuinely proud of my family for their actions, especially my parents! If it had been a few years ago, I doubt my father would have allowed us to take Banjeegal into the house. Yay! Here're a few more photos of little Banjeegal.
My favourite photo of her. While sitting with her and stroking her tummy, she closed her eyes a few times and lay down to sleep! Felt a little sad afterward hahahhaha - I guess a tiny part of me was hoping we could keep her if no one came forward! But realistically speaking I know I'm not cut out to take care of a dog. IT'S NOT FER FUN, KIDS. Be responsible pet owners, please!
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On Wednesday I went for my second interview. I really prepared my slides well, and my script well. I really put in my best! But I bombed the interview. I didn't impress the interviewers, and they shot me with unexpected questions that I don't think I answered well.
Was so bummed out so went for a drink.... BUT NO SULKY FACES CAN ACCOMPANY ERDINGER, ESPECIALLY ERDINGER DUNKEL.
This is better, haha.
Took this photo and joked "This shows who wears the pants in the relationship" IT'S A JOKE, OKAY - Girls can and do love whisky neat, and guys can and do love Cosmopolitans. DEAL WITH IT
Thanks bb for putting up with my sulky self and trying your best to cheer me up, really appreciate it (:
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Things went downhill from there and it's been a crazy week full of crying fests and to top it off, bouts of insomnia. Hmm. I've quite lost my sense of identity and sense of being, and I think it'll just take weeks for the end to come.
Feel so tired it's mad.......
Maybe I should go visit Banjeegal soon!
Ok bye.
Labels: dogs, fatigue, Life, sense of ego, tired, we love dogs
