I've lost my voice.
My throat is parched; my nasal cavity is sore and raw, like it's been dragged through sand. Everything within my head feels utterly inflammed and my ears ring with the pressure from sneezing and blowing my nose.
I've been ill for the past week. I started feeling a bit under the weather on Monday, but on Wednesday, I was full on sneezing and coughing away. Went to the doctor's on Thursday and got medicine. But the medicine doesn't seem to be helping. I've been drinking bottles of chrysanthemum tea, cooling water, herbal tea, drinking warm honey water, gargling salt water, drinking salt water, eating porridge and soup - but nothing's helping.
My voice is hoarse and it hurts to talk. And I'm really struggling, because the cough is the really annoying kind - the kind that gets stuck in your throat and doesn't want to get spit out even though you're hurling away with the force of that of your body is capable of, of hurling a baby out of your body.
I don't know how to deal with it, because I was trying to be responsible and get to emails, but in the end I kept worrying and worrying and it led to sleep that wasn't restful. I'm struggling.
I thought it was the medicine that was making me break out, but it was actually my period announcing its arrival. So to top things off, my period's here.
I feel fat, ugly, ill to the bones, angry, tired and unhappy. I just want to curl into a corner and feel sorry for myself. I don't have the strength to face what I have to face tomorrow.
...
Labels: falling ill, sorry, time of the month
