It's when you proclaim loudly in your mind "I am sad" - somehow that turns into a formidable force of kinetic energy and tears well up in your eyes and your nose feels odd and you start tearing and crying turns into sobbing and your face crumples and you become a sad, sad person.
As you feel the tears running down your cheeks and falling off your face, in big sad drops off your nose, you tell yourself "You're a grown woman now - why are you crying over one person? Why are you crying over one person who isn't part of your family when there're more important family members and friends in your life? Why? Stop crying, stop crying."
The crying gets worse.
You occupy a huge space in my heart and I really never would have thought that you would hurt me this way...
