I used to care. I used to really really care.
I feel so out of place today. I feel so left out today. Sometimes I really feel unimportant.
It's been getting really difficult. I know Jian Gang said I seemed to be coping well but it's been getting harder and harder. It appears to me everywhere I turn to. I feel defeated... Sometimes I just want to crumble, die and leave this place.
I never truly feel happy anymore. The sadder I am feeling, the more I put on colourful outfits and makeup to mask it. These events don't feel real at all; I am living from day to day not exacting any form of significance.
I used to really care. But now I just feel so blank.