I'VE GOT WRITER'S BLOCK
not that I write professionally as a writer, but still, you know, that's the term they use. Aren't there an awful lot of conventionalised terms and phrases people use? I mean, "you know" is one. So is "I mean." And who's they anyway?
Maybe I should start being a tad more responsible in the portrayal of myself on this platform of mine, because some people are coming back to me and asking me about stuff I write on the blog. Well maybe not responsible, but less crazy and less psychotic, maybe. Maybe.
BUT MY MOMMA TAUGHT ME NEVER TO LIE
Man I'm going bonkers.
It is pouring now. It's always nice to listen to the pitpattering of the raindrops. The occasional whoosh of the wind. The roar of the random car passing by. Not the thunder though. I hate thunder.
Sometimes I think I'm really weird because I tend to flout social norms. Not like... I'd pee in the middle of the streets out in broad daylight or be rude to my fellow classmates in class. But, I'd tend to be too enthusiastic, to want to be friends with everyone. Just recently, when Divya, Moritza, Melcher, and I were having lunch together, all of them were using their phones and I just commented "Why does everyone seem to always be on their phones nowadays?"
While it wasn't an accidental slip of the tongue, I didn't exactly mean for the comment to just be said so bluntly... I guess it was more of a thought to myself because I wasn't meaning it as a criticism but it seemed like one (and I think Mor took it as such though, she went "Okay sorry sorry" and kept her phone away! ): ) -- and I felt so bad so I rushed to explain. I just noticed that people around me always seemed to be using their phones so much. Even when they had friends with them, they'd be checking social media websites, or using their phone apps, or texting other friends. Mor said it's because maybe sometimes it's to pass the awkward moments by, but I've noticed that even really good friends do it? Like I was with Gannuer once, in the train, and she just whipped out her phone and was scrolling through Facebook without really doing anything, like commenting on others' stuff or liking anything. So I asked her "Why do people feel the need to be updated with social media all the time?" Because I'm the sort who'd just put my phone away if I'm with someone else. Of course I'm not anal; checking one's phone once in awhile to reply texts and all I've no issues with. But constant checking - it's like we're wired the entire bloody time.
Why can't people just live in the moment? I want people to talk in earnest to others, to cherish the time spent with others, and just to LIVE.
Or maybe the reason why I've noticed this is because the action reflects on me - I'm actually an unbearable and dull person.................... *GASP
PS In case anyone says I'm commenting negatively about my friends again, I should point out that I mentioned that I'd already been thinking about this phenomenon for quite some time, it's just that this incident was the most recent one and hence the easiest to use as a setting for my narrative. SO THERE
Labels: early morning type, musing, thoughts
