I have been on a diet. I usually don't advocate diets and I think you know the best for yourself what works for you. However, recently, I've just completely let go and been stuffing myself (mostly on leftover CNY goodies). What's worse, I haven't been exercising. Hence the reason to go on a diet, to cut out excess food from my diet, such as fried food, chocolate, ice cream, and all that. However, I haven't really been eating carbs, and while that's the easiest way to lose weight fast, it isn't really healthy. I've been feeling sluggish and my mood has been cranky, to say the least.
Yesterday I finally went to the gym and I think I pushed myself too hard with the squats - coupled with not eating carbs and having no energy, I haven't exercised in really long. After my last rep, I felt giddy and my vision was blurred. Every single sound in the gym was amplified in my mind; the gearing of the treadmill, the odd clink of the weights dropped to the floor, and the goddamn clubbing music. I panicked a little, and my breaths kept coming quicker and quicker. I was hyperventilating.
Thank goodness, Bryan was there with me and he sat me down, held my hands and asked me to breathe in and out, slowly. I just concentrated on the sound of his voice and though tears were streaming down my cheeks, I eventually calmed down.
Nick explained to me how your body needs carbs to function, how carbs give you energy to do stuff. How eating natural animal fat is fine, but processed food such as white rice and yellow noodles aren't good for you.
At night I finally had goddamned potatoes and I felt so much more energized. To hell with this no-carb thing, eating clean involves treating my body well. I'm going to try something else which Nick suggested!
Yesterday I spent many hours with Bryan, and with Nick. I'm thankful for these two persons, really thankful to have them in my life. (:
Labels: eating clean, governing bodies
