Today I did not wear false eyelashes to school. Today I dressed more like a student to school (which I actually am) than as if heading out to town to chill out. It's week 6 after all, I ought to be spending more time getting rest and doing work. In any case, my inspiration for today's outfit was a hipster! My striped top is from River Island. I seldom wear stripes but I quite like how casual this particular one is. And I do not have many green tops in my wardrobe. In my left hand, instead of a cigarette, I am holding the Deck's iced lemon tea. And there's nothing my Doc Marts can't jazz up.
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Kinda really digging
Sango a lot this moment. Again, I thank the stars for sending me Thomas because without him, I wouldn't have been exposed to future garage, post-dubstep stuff so early on in my life. Actually at 21 I consider it to have been too late but it's okay, I spend my early mornings playing catch up.
Check out some of his tracks!
The bass in these two tracks are so good. Nowadays, this kind of music excites me. I'm pretty bummed out when some of my friends are still hooked onto electro house. I used to like that so I can understand how they like it. It's also how I first started listening to electronic music so I'm pretty thankful for UK Top 40 for the exposure. But nowadays, that's mostly too loud and hard hitting for me. I like house, deep house. I like garage. I like bass. Sometimes I like trance. And grime. Soul. Disco. Trap. I also have my techno moods. Hmm. Maybe my tastes will keep changing. I think they will. For now, I really love these tracks.
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Gannuer came over on Sunday and we talked. My dearest gannuer is really like a daughter to me, and so I felt hurt that she was hurt.
To Gannuer:
You are one of the strongest persons I know. You have a really clear mind and good heart, and you really deserve the best. I've seen you through ups and downs for 8 friggin' years and I know you'll make it through this. Do not give up on yourself! You're worth so much. YOUR GAN MA LOVES YOU VERY MUCH, OKAY? *glares at you fiercely
After some discussion about Europe and thieves, she then became my guinea pig; I did her makeup for her.
Photos aren't very clear but I did a gold-to-dark blue smokey eye for her, to match her slouchy blue tee.
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I felt a little hypocrital because I was telling her she had to treat herself better -- yet I myself have been crying every day. I.. will try my best. To be honest, I'm only making it through each day with the help of family and friends. Sometimes I send nonchalant texts, sometimes it's just a sad emoticon, sometimes it's crazy sobbing, sometimes it's heartfelt talks... everything helps. I've stopped wanting to die.
Mommy dearest woke up early one day to prepare breakfast for all of us. (:
And when I was hurting by self inflicted pain caused by getting gastric pains from not eating the entire day, I was taken care by a very sweet boy.
And I was also aided by a hot water bottle left to me by the bestie.
And if things aren't enough, when I complained that I hadn't even gotten a bite of the two pints of B&J my parents had bought and they had already disappeared, they went and bought 4 pints of Haagen Dazs again.
From a few months back:
Mommy and I (in a hoodie)
Coffee addicts, we are
Went over to Gannuer's for dinner:
Thank you Zhiwei for getting us these souvenirs from Aussie!!
Topless 5, we ought to have steamboat at my place again.
Gender class is killing me. All the readings are killing me. Without Jian Gang telling me "You'll be fine", I'll most probably set fire to all them damned readings.
Really, only music calms me down.......... Here are some more tracks which I've been listening to recently.
Yousef is............. so......... good.
And though this last track is from really long ago, I love it.
Jacques Greene will always cheer me up!
Goodbye.
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